Says Who

2010-06-20T22:02:00.004+08:00

I love the word 'oh well'.

This week is pretty much the same except that I have love back by my side.

It has been work work work and just work.

Let me recall.

I do not recall what I do anything this week. Expect for Sat and Sun.

Only significant thing that happened was me being so unstable within my inner thoughts that causes me to have a small quarrel(not quarrel but me being angry at him for nth)

Oh well, woman is woman still.

okay I admit that im a person who think real lots of shit.

I can think of any random stuff and induce those feelings into me and get affected by it.

Yes I am capable of that. and once I lock it, yup, it will be hard to get out until my ass head is being knock and wake up to senses.

I am having a headache now due to the lack of sleep.

It sucks to be an adult but rocks to be one at the same time.

Awwww. I should stop now.

2010-06-12T23:31:00.002+08:00

My face feel so cooling. Kudos to the mask that I'm applying right now.

Listening to Jay C. new songs. Not so fantastic.

Love is coming back tomorrow!

Time pass so fast.

And I'm going to India.

Honestly, no one expect me to go India.

Neither myself too. =X

Am really excited yet scared at the same time.

I'm finally staying out of Singapore, seeing new things.

But afraid of disease, sickness, dirty and weather.

Well all checked. Wonderful.

I think I'm a malaysian. I have been going in EVERY week.

Oh well, what am I talking about?

I'm half malaysian!

hmmm...

Had a great time sitting in the car today honestly.

Think it through. Maybe I should try travelling alone next time.

To a country that I dunno and try walking and just see the scenery.

You think I can do it?

I doubt people think so.

But that makes me want to try even more!

Been thinking lots.

2010-06-05T00:39:00.002+08:00

I am extremely exhausted right now.

Think it is the burn out from my work.

How to explain my job right now.

Sucky, exciting, dry and challenging.

one thing for sure is: time consuming.

Oh wells. It is money that I'm after.

See the difference between a children and an adult?

Moolahs is the answer.

This week past fast. Just one blink I'm at work. Another blink it's after work. Third blink is sleep. Fourth blink is back to my office chair again.

Love is enjoying himself in Europe. A very tiny lil part of me was glad that he is there.

At least he dun has to do his usual routine and I have no time for him during the weekdays too.

At least for now because I wasn't exactly used to my new jobscope yet.

This whole week has been a fruitful one?

I saw Zhilin almost everyday because we work the same building.

Met up with dear, benn, silas, ex-colleagues.

And by chance I talked on phone with WS which was woots AGES!

Saw Malvin Chan my ex teacher on the train today.

Right now I feel so good in the comfort of my own.

With just my eyes close for a second, I can feel my head spinning.

Woots seem like im really tired.

in anyway. Im so lazy to surf the net.

Too much com.

2010-05-30T00:48:00.003+08:00

The last time I stepped into here was December?

And now it's May 2010.

I have graduated.

And I'm 20.

I'm doing a different thing from what I thought I won't be doing.

I lost quite a few friends.

Yet I gained quite a few friends.

Changed a new boyfriend.

Took of my P-plate.

Got over the past totally.

In the 'lost-phase' of my life.

So did this five months changed alot?

Yes it did.

Was out with Ben and Jeremy earlier on.

Just like any outing that we always have but we digg out the past.

I almost forgotten that I was a drum major once.

The feeling of it is totally gone.

I was in a three years r/s before? I didn;t even know how I survived through it.

We talked about the past. How I rejected the guy that end up tgt with my friend.

How I got tgt with my three yrs bf when he dated one of my used to be good friend.

How I advise the girl not to accept him when in the end I pull through a three years r/s.

How my clique was formed and who have entered and left.

I used to think that I'm mature enough for my age and is a good person.

hahaha the thought of it is funny.

The hospital became a joke of my life. It is also he turning point of my life.

It also determine where I stand right now in terms of study.

I kept asking myself if I regretted it.

I have happy moments and of course, sad moments.

I believe that I truly love him before and was so deeply hurt by it.

How I refused to let it go that causes everything to happen.

But if I haven't go through it, I doubt I will be who I am today.

I would still be ignorant, arrogant, not knowing how to treasure things around me.

Thats a bad thing! It leads me to dislike pple who took pple for granted.

So many things that i want to do right now.

Im curious about my future.

I have been thinking about the past.

I think I live in the pst because I have been constantl thinking about it everyday.

Bad bad bad.

Whats the point of being reminded if the past?

I will just missed out what I have now right?

True.

I am glad that I am who I am now.

One day. I'm gonna be successful.

I promise myself that.

I am super sure that I am definitely stronger than a few years ago.

2009-12-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

I got too many things cramped inside my head.

My stomach is not feeling good at all.

So which is the reason that makes me can't sleep?

Does I sound like D? I think so =)

Its a tiring job/day for me.

It leads me thinking that : Hey. you only devoted this one day out of 365days.

Whereas he devoted how many thousands of days or you already?

I wished that I could be of much help.

But there's a limit that I can do.

Can I penetrate through his brain?

I would very much want to.

No I cant give up.

Now I need to relax. Fuck relax this word.

Because of it.

Damn.

I wished that I could just sleep now.

God it will be a better day.

I will stand by there.

Everything will be fine just like what my doo doo said to me.

2009-11-21T01:07:00.000+08:00

I think my stomach got too much food!

2009-11-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

I'm surprised that I can actually find time to blog over here.

School is seriously mad.

Just yesterday I had a 'ship-ship' test.

Tomorrow I have to hand in Indiv. Report for 'ka-chingz! casino'.

Then Monday I have a 30% test follow by a 'ka-chingz!' test on Wed...

Oh. The list goes on..

Insane!

One good news is...

I can sleep early tonight because I have finished my Gaming!

One word: Tired.

I felt distant away from some of my friends.

It is not that I don't want to hang out with them.

but it just that I felt left out and ya.

I need sleep nw.

2009-11-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

It's 1.42am now.

I should be really sleeping because I have to be up at 730am?

That's early ever since I stopped work.

It has been rather eventful today.

Had a dinner meet up with Suyin and I swear within a short span of 2 hours we have so much to share.

F.I.S.H wasn't nice at all.

The feeling we got was "Cheated".

It was seriously a nice and heart warming one.

After that, there's a hoo haa that happen late at night.

Waiting time in the hospital was damn long.

That's the reason why I hated hospital partially

Anyway, if any of you chance upon this, please do not come and ask me alright.

Unless I tell you myself. Anyway, don't have to worry so much.

What I worry now is.

should I go to Bali?

Sighs..

It's been 6 years. I hope this time there will be a great improvement.

We never gave up on you!

Jia you!

and always remember. We love you. =)

2009-11-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

It's only Tuesday, school is already draining me out.

Man, I need some school love potion.

Lecture is really a torture when you are feeling super sleepy.

It's like a chant!

Anyway, a short hangout session with my UBS colleagues was seriously a good one.

At least it made me feel more relax and happy.

It's just that I'm still adapting to school and thinking of my future this and that.

I guess doo is digging his own grave yard now?

Or already done by now?

It's okay, the next time he will be digging grave will be when the both of us die. =p

Tomorrow is another school day.

But it's okay.

That would means one more day down!

This is just a super random post.

Bye Love!

2009-11-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

Anyway. Random post after such a long time. I think that I should start blogging so that in case I lost my memory or when I'm old, I can look back on things that I had done before. Okay that's a whole load of crap thoughts.

I tried cutting bangs about a month ago. And I think I failed terribly.

The comments I got from people were: OMG. you look like a china girl now.

Man. I think/swear I will never cut this again.

Something nice: We both got the same kind of fringe for the first time!

These were taken when bf turns 21 on the 17 Oct 09.

Happy Birthday Doo!

* Though it's rather late now =) *

He is officially now serving the country.

In short: Army boy

Let's just hope that my patience for this boy can last that long!

And, did you se my fringe? It is no longer that short!

Now I have school tomorrow at 10am.

That sucks.

Bf is out for field camp for 6 days.

then I will be out of town for 4 days.

That would mean I have got 6 more days before we can talk on phone

That sucks too!!!

2009-10-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

My eyes are feeling very itchy and I can't get to sleep.

I lost my phone earlier on so now I end up thinking and troubling over what phone should I buy.

Touch phone or not?

Whoever steals my phone is a bad person!

In a day time doo will be enlisting.

So fast.

And it's gonna be 2 years.

Many have been to army.

I just hope things will be alright and he will be fine. =)

2009-09-27T01:48:00.003+08:00

I have this friend that I had never got the chance to be good friend with.

From the day I knew him, he was a Mr. Nice Guy in my mind.

Till now, he is still one.

There was only two occasion that I had a proper 'sit down talk' with him.

And that was 1 year plus ago.

He was such a nice guy.

Although the guy that we are discussing about is his best friend but he is still being nice to me, telling me the truth. In fact, he helped me in a way to walk out of the obstacle that I was facing at that time.

I promised him that when I get my license, I will drive him around one day to treat him a meal.

But this day never comes.

I will never get the chance to.

That's the regret that I have and blame myself for.

Till now I think many of us can't believe what happened.

Though I never get the chance to talk to him recently but I'm sure he is a blessed man with so many people showering him love.

You are a wonderful man.

And you are unforgettable.

Trust me, even when I'm old, you will still be remembered by us.

2009-09-13T01:54:00.002+08:00

I ended up in Sentosa today without having it in one of my itinerary for the day initially.

Honestly, I felt super good and relax except for the heat part.

Was super irritated by the service provided by Trappizza..

But their pizza save them!

It was nice.

Shopping in Vivo is tiring!!

And the movie I love you, Beth Cooper isn't that good after all.

2009-09-08T19:38:00.000+08:00

Friendship

2009-09-06T03:07:00.002+08:00

My blog is like totally dead.
I haven't been updating for almost a month!
But it seem even longer to me.

Anyway, today had a meet up session with my usual secondary clique.
It's dope.
We started thrashing out what we feel and unhappy about.
If you want to say it in a bad way. We are bitching.
But nice way is, we are just being honest.

I know that I'm being blunt and straightforward.
However I don't regret doing it.
Got enough of it and I think I should say out my mind.
Everyone of us should be.
I really dislike when people takes things for granted.
Especially friendship.
Like I said before.
It takes two hands to clap. Same as relationship.
If one keep trying and the other keep pushing away.
What's the point.
It is just wasting each other time.
Yes. Friends choose friends
Choose what kind of friends you love being with.
But do you stop at one point and appreciate them?
You must.
Don't come out for an outing feeling that you need to satisfy the group or feel obliged to.
If this is the way, don't come at all.
Friendship is easy to create but hard to maintain.
If the group isn't interesting or cool for you, then I guess you found the wrong friends.
To stay or leave is up to oneself.
Can;t stand it when people got no brains to think, no heart to appreciate.
Worse is those that still don't know what fault they have.
HAH.
Try go and plan something then. see what difficulties you have.
Ask yourself what have you done to this friendship.
No. Not done. But contribute.
Have anything unhappy come straight to me. Not as if I will keep quiet.
Like what we have said just now,
those wanna stay will.
Those who doesn't no point holding.
Like I said before.
I'm not going to plan anymore thing. Never. Only for those that is worth I will.
Don;t expect people to go by your way or to meet your requirement.
If you don;t know what is compromise, then go dictionary.com.
It's time to grow up man.
By the way, I am fucking pissed at the attitude you have on us as friends.
Bull shit.

Man, I sound pissed. Yes I am.

But I still love today outing!
=)

2009-08-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

It's going to be a tough 2 months!
But it's all for a good cause.
JIA YOU

2009-07-30T08:39:00.001+08:00

There must be something wrong in me.
I don't know what is it, but I knew there is something wrong.
Am I doing what I want in life?
Am I really the person that I want to be?

I just feel numb.
Everyday has been a routine to me.
It seems as if I just live my life as it is.
Waiting for each day to pass.
Waiting for my pay to come in monthly.
Eat, sleep and work as usual.
Quarrels have been increasingly raising till both have reach the level of tired.
I'm so afraid through all these quarrels, in the end one day, we will just found out that we are not suited for each other.

And fuck, my car got bumped yesterday night.
What the hell.
Wish me luck tonight man.
I'm sorry car.

Life has been changing a lot for me from year to year.
Man. This ain't good man.
I;m really missing my secondary schools.
We are all so ignorant and fun?
We joke and laugh at the slightest thing.
At least going to school made us bond together.
Allowing the chance for us to keep each other in one another's life.
Now?
to organize an outing is so hard.
Ranging from timing, to the venue and eating what- all these are troublesome.
What's more, we have to suit into everybody schedule and all.
Sometimes, I just feel like giving up and not giving a damn about it.

Okay. Enough of ranting.
Back to life.

2009-07-26T02:38:00.000+08:00

Woah. I;m so tired.

Shall blog tmr when I wake up.

Oh no. Should be later. =)

I love you dear.

2009-07-12T22:04:00.003+08:00

Nex

2009-07-05T18:48:00.000+08:00

It's a Sunday.

So that means a new week of work is going to start.

Oh man.

I'm not looking forward to it.

On the other note.

I think I'm being cheated.

What the hell.

I want to go and wash car now

2009-07-03T08:01:00.000+08:00

Good morning.

I really need the energy to stay awake.
Start work at 7am yesterday and end at 9.30pm.
Staring work today at 730am and gonna end at I don't know what time.
I really wish to sleep.
On the other note, I have to work tomorrow!! No. I am not excited. Thanks.

I would like to motivate myself to learn more in the coming last month of intern.
I realize that I haven't gotten the maturity attitude towards the working society.
Yes, I will do things and think sometimes.
But I guess I can't just stop there.

So sweet of boyfriend to actually wait downstairs my house for 1hrs 30 mins
just for a 10 minutes meet up.
Don't think that I am the bad person to let him wait.
I have no idea that he is downstairs my house till I was at Jurong.
The clever boy just conveniently 'parked' himself and his ladybug without telling me.
Love you! =)

Anyway, I really hope the swine flu gets better.
If not, my trip will go to a waste.
AND I BOUGHT TICKETS ALREADY.
VIRUS or WHOEVER you are, please get yourself out of our world!

Now I feel regret saying yes to October. Man.

2009-07-02T12:08:00.005+08:00

1) When lift door opens...

Aus: The one nearest will automatically hold the button for the rest to go in first, then he go is last.

SG: The people behind will squeeze from behind to get to the front, shoving and pushing to block those exiting.T

2) While waiting in line to pay at cashier...

Aus: Those in front with many groceries will let you to pay first, if you got only few items to pay.

SG: Hope la... Wait in line for your turn. So what if you only queueing to pay for 1 drink can. I got a whole trolley of groceries! Tan la....

3) If you pushing a pram at a busy mall...

Aus: People will give way to you to get through the crowd.

SG: People will ignore your pram and squeeze through. If your pram hit their leg, they will turn around and give you a CB look

4) While trying to find a lot at a busy carpark...

Aus: They will let you park first if you got children in car, especially if you got prams.

SG: Nabeh.... I come first hor. Got kids, so what? wait la, why cannot wait is it???

5) Driving along the road, trying to change lanes..

Aus: the moment you signal, they will slow down for you.

SG: The moment you signal, they will go faster beside to block your lane.

6) When calling a helpline...

Aus: "Thank you for calling Austar, your call is important to us, and we will attend to you as soon as possible. Pls hold." and then, 5 secs, someone answers..... " Sorry for holding, this is Ann, how may I assist you?"

SG: " Our system is not getting a response from the subscriber's mobile phone. Pls try again later"..... enagaged tone.. Or else, it is "All our operators are busy at the moment, pls continue to hold and your call will be answered in the next available order." After 10 minutes.... still same msg. Hang up lor.

7) At Macdonalds...

Aus: " G' Day, may I have your order, sir?....would that be all?...thank you and you have a nice day. I am glad to be of service to you today. Ta.."

SG: Eating here, or take away????? that will be $11.70. Next pls.....

8) When u bought a dress and realized wrong size. You return to exchange..

Aus: We gladly offer a full refund with no question asked.

SG: Sorry, Goods sold are not refundable!!!

9) When u call up a service company to complain about their service...

Aus: We appreciate your feedback and our company hereby offers you a $50 voucher for your next purchase. Thank you.

SG: We will be following up on the complain and will get back to you soonest..... After months, die of natural death. Pretend nothing happened.

10) Your handphone is damaged and you goes to a service center...

Aus: We will be glad to lend you a spare while your phone is being repaired. If it cannot be repaired, we will gladly replace you with a new phone.

SG: Your phone will take about 3-4 weeks for re pair. Meantime, you have no phone, but we will call you when its ready.. How to call me when I have no hp???? funny right?

Interesting e-mail I received for the day.

On the other note. It's Thursday already!

2009-07-01T14:19:00.000+08:00

Let's fight H1N1!

I have a habit now.
Every morning I would spend 1 hour in front of the computer reading news from Straits Times and Yahoo.com.sg.
However, it only applies from Monday to Friday.
Simply because I'm in office and I want to read something that is not related to work.

Oh. I wanna watch I Love You Man.

And I just had a quarrel with boyfriend yesterday night.
Everything is fine now. =)

Now back to working!

2009-06-30T12:50:00.001+08:00

I will probably TRY to push myself back to work after this.
The 'lazy-hormone' and 'tired-hormone' is building rapidly inside.
It's only 1230pm. Worst of all, it is only TUESDAY.
That’s the most irritating part.
Now I know the difference of full time and part time.
Dang.

I am contemplating to get the determination back to exercise.
But as usual, the devil in me wins and the time win. yays.

Transformers are really a good show.
Needless me to say, it's a woo-haa everywhere now.

Sometimes I wonder, can't people slow down their pace when going out of MRT?
Or maybe into MRT too?
Came across this lady who forcefully force her way through when the MRT doors open.
Worst. She has to squeeze into the crowds, banging everybody, so that she can get to the 'tap tap' ez link machine fast.
Not as if the machine has legs that will run away right?
This is not some Harry Potter's hogwart kind of train station.

I want to eat popcorn.
No you can't!
Okay.

2009-06-28T19:30:00.002+08:00

Oh man. Sunday is passing so fast.

I haven't got enough sleep.

Slept from 3am to 1130am.

1pm to 4.30pm.

And I guess I will be sleeping before 1130 today.

Does that shows how much sleep I really lack of?

And when my sleep a'int enough, lots of people suffer.

OMG. I'm already so old.

I'm at a age whereby I'm near to the work society.

Man.

I realised time is really zooming.

It seems like a few days ago that I was still mugging for my O level.

Serious.

Maybe that shows how much I detest about growing up?

I'm at a age that I CAN DRIVE ALREADY.

Man.

Sometimes when I am driving, I wonder if I am really holding a driving license or am I dreaming? hahaha.

Can you believe it?

Because I'm certain I have got people wondering: " YOU MEAN SHE CAN DRIVE?? DON'T LIE PLEASE. AND I STILL WANT TO LIVE!" lol.

Sure enough. People come and go.

There are some friends that I used to be very close with. However, out of a sudden they are out of my life. Now if we do see each other, it's just a hi-bye.

I find myself to be closer to NYK LIANG more than any other friends.

Though both of us are famous for having a busy schedule, we still come out to meet.

This is call SACRIFICE! lol. sounds serious uh!

Sounds pathetic like I only have one friend right?

NONONONO.

You people are wrong.

I still have Jasmine and Zhilin.

As usual, we are not having any outing successful yet.

but but but. we still sms each other randomly.

Now you people must be thinking our sms is those that last very long.

NONONONO.

Let me tell you, our sms only last not more than 15 sms!

hahaha. But I guess we are still attached in heart to each other with this short sms.

Time does not help us in making us able to meet each other at all! But the memories we used to have help. =)

And I think I can READ Jasmine's mind.

I can sense where is she.

For example, there was once when I was driving to Tampines, I just got a strong feeling that Jasmine is there too.

So I called here.

JUST NICE, SHE GOTTEN HERSELF A FREE RIDE!

Man. Lucky you.

Okay, I would need to have a stroll with boyfriend at ECP now.

Bye!

2009-06-25T20:49:00.002+08:00

June is not the month.

No, I'm not sad.

I'm not angry.

I'm not irritated.

I'm feeling a kind of feeling that I can't describe it in words.

I'm deprive of outings with my friends.

Not because that I'm dating because I don't even have time to date.

I really can't find a time that I can go out with my friends.

With the thoughts of extending my internship still..

I feel changes in my life.

but its not that I like it.

2009-06-16T19:33:00.000+08:00

haha. Was reading Kif's comments and it really makes me laugh!

On the lighter note, office seems to be getting better.

And a point is I need to go gym..

but I can't.

Good girl.

2009-06-14T23:19:00.004+08:00

Dedicated to you

and only you.

Put down the phone for 10 minutes just to write this for you.

Thanks doo for loving me and thank me for loving you! haha.

I enjoy all the moment that I have spent with you up to this point of time.

Certainly I would want this to work out for us.

Getting together by accident with not much of 'wooing' process or maybe even none of it,

indeed I'm taken aback that we can get off so well.

Though there isn't many obstacles except for a few major one, we are still intact.

Of course, with many people's blessing, that makes us more happy. =)

You are always so sweet ( because of your sweet tongue! ) and punctual.

Reasonable? Yea, but maybe just that lil bit you are not.

Selfish? Definitely you are towards me!!

and I guess you called me 'baby' so much in front of your mum that she is being influenced by you and started calling me that!

Arhmmm!!

Lastly, I love you.

If it's too mushy for the rest of you, the cross sign is just at the top right hand corner!

2009-06-12T17:02:00.002+08:00

If ever time can turn back, I wouldn't make that choice.

Now the moment i look at it, I cry.

Fuck.

All of you could only console me and all.

But it's me not happening to any others.

2009-06-11T21:57:00.005+08:00

The first day back to work was a total new start for me.

I have to drag myself out of the bed.

And guess what.

The moment I reached Little India station, I couldn't resist my body from flagging a cab.

So yup, I took a cab instead of bus.

Right now, I'm feeling so exhausted which I don;t know why.

I hope I still have the energy for tomorrow.

And, I just did my worst house tour.

Gosh. o damn disappointed.

Shall blog more on sat!

2009-06-07T15:02:00.002+08:00

I am rotting at home.
Fish and fish and even more fish.
The sight of fish disgust me.
The thoughts of chicken and egg makes me wanna die.
If you place a half chicken in front of me now, I will be more than happy to finish it.
Does that shows how much I wanna eat chicken right now?
VERY MUCH.

I'm also craving for the outside world.
Have been sleeping and just sleep.
You can imagine yourself waking up, eat and go back to sleep.
Very soon I will see an increase of numbers on the weighing scale.

MmmMmmmMmm..

I love you boyfriend.
Thank you for your time, efforts and all.
Though I complain and get irritated by you easily during this period, you still swallow it.
Love you doo!

2009-06-06T16:49:00.002+08:00

Not exactly NEW.

I'm sick of the previous one.

So, I decided that I shall be "eco-friendly", by not creating any new blog but re-use it.

Good idea right? Super Proud.

I'm getting rusty over here because I have not been typing this kind of shitty things for a period.

Anyway, I'm rotting at home currently.

These few days my duties revolve around a few things:

Sleep
Eat
TV
Phone with friends and boyfriend

Typically, I'm living a life like a ..... I don't know man.

I'm looking forward to my trip in AUGUST!

Wahahhaa.. Will share info with you guys!

Just to update anyone that is interested:

I still prefer RED.
I'm still in love with my Macbook.
I still prefer Coach, but don't mind others.
I'm still in love with watching movies.
I still love to drive.
I'm still me.

The End. Shoo.=)

2009-04-10T21:54:00.001+08:00

http://superredness.blogspot.com

2009-04-03T16:07:00.002+08:00

It was today then I realised that I have abandon my blog for a super long time.
And the previous few post are bits of rubbish or total rubbish.

Internship. Internship. Internship has been a popular topic for me.
UBS is all I can think of in my mind.
Being able to wake up every morning is a miracle.
Bet that's what everyone feels.

I miss my life.
The carefree life that I used to have.
But through this intern, I can't deny that I didn't learn alot.
I got to see the working society and what have I not learn in my life so far.
And of course, without fail, I miss my schoolmates. The time we spend togetehr.
The bad thing about being the only intern is that I feel lonely at times.
Feel that there is a distance with my polymates.

My MacBook has finally sent for repair. All I need to do now is to WAIT.
Can;t wait for it to come back because I really love my lappy.
ALthough I keep complaining about it. I still love it.

I feel so dead.

2009-03-20T08:12:00.001+08:00

oh my blog is lagging of photos.
SATURDAY I WILL UPLOAD

2009-03-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

my eyes are going to close anytime. But i got locked out of house as i forgotten to bring my keys out. How clever right? Superb! So now i am sitting at my staircase and blogging at the same time. :) blogging is abit of boring uh. Yea. Nights.

2009-03-15T18:08:00.002+08:00

In a few hours, I will be off to bed and I will sleep for a few more hours then I have to go for work already.
Sighs.
20 more weeks to go.
Welcome on board all LRMs who will be starting their SIP officially tomorrow.
My workplace ambience is really nice and the people are nice.
However the ghost stories that they feed me with really makes me afraid of the place at night!

As people who knows me, I love to sleep.
So imgaine I have to wake up so early in the morning from Mon to Fri.
It's a torture.
My feet is super pain and tired too..
ahhhh....

2009-03-11T20:08:00.000+08:00

I don't know what to wear!

2009-03-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

First day of internship and I am really tired.
My eyes are really tired right now.
It can just close anytime.
Sounds like I'm very busy today right?
hahaha. No lah. I didn't have much to do.
My colleagues are very nice to me.
Ambience is DOPE.
Food is nice.
Drinks are goodd.

Mad Jack sucks.

2009-03-08T23:27:00.004+08:00

Few days after my birthday.
Actually 2 days only.
Happy birthday girl =)
You're 19, last year to be in the tens before you move to the big two.
omg.
scary.

First of all, I would like to thank each and everyone of you who wishes me.
I am blessed to have of of you as friends! =)
Loves!
Not to forget, CONGRATULATIONS to those who have wished me exactly at 2.42pm.
I know I seem particular about this but oh well!

Thank you! Suyin, Benn, Jeremy, Charlene and Amanda for the surprise, cake and presents. You guys are really sweet. Except the point that my bf lie to me! haha. Anyway, I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOUR BOUGHT ME A BOWL FOR $26.00! Mad at it! But still I love the Ralph Lauren perfume. Love you guys to the max max max. AND thanks for the fake NYK arrival. Although I'm pretty sure that if he appears right in front, I will cry on the spot! But nahhh..

Thank you! Boyfriend for accompanying me for my birthday. Thanks for the roses and Coach wristlet that you bought for me. I love it. I feel that my birthday is more of like yours. You have to rush here and there, thinking of making me happy. And ya, this time you win. Brought me to a place that I have never know and go before. So credits for that! Irritating pest! hahaha. Thanks for accepting my nonsense, craziness and all. =)

Thank you! William and Weijian. Your are two brave souls who did threading! hahaha. It was classic moment. All we do was to walk around and eat all the great food. Nice Nice. Fun bitching, talking, complaining, discussing and commenting! Thank care in Orlando and all the best for 30th!

Thank you Krystal, Yammy and Kang Wei for treating me to Ichiban, celebrating my birthday. It's been nice knowing your and actually fortunate. You guys are special in your own ways. hahaha I don;t know why I would type that but it just came across my mind. It's been kind of long that we know each other. Hope it remains and meet up k! Thank you once again and loves!

Thank you! Sister for buying me a meal, Victoria Secret wristlet and MakeUp! haha. You rock! Okay Proud to be your sister and thanks for eveyrthing. I hope you get a job soon so that you won't be so depressed. Have faith in yourself man because you are ACK. okay I think I can become a motivator! CRAP.

Thank you! Cousin for giving me Tangs vouchers. haha. Voucher is always my happy present because I can spend it! Woots. I guess she heard me saying I want voucher that why she got me that. haha I love you!

Thank you! Brandon, Prem, Sherman, Jasmine, Samuel, Max, Zhilin, Weilun, Marcus, Jamie, Adam, Eugene, Eng Kee, Stanley, Hasri, Saihah, Suzanne, Joel, Jacq, Rachel, Weisiong, Khai Loon, Desmond, NYK, Adrian, Keiths, Suyin, Jeremy, Amanda, Charlene, Benn, Irfan, Glady, Yanling, Lifen, Felicia, Ivan, Bell, Jing Yang, Melissa, Raudah, Huiru, Michelle and boyfriend for wishing, celebrating and facebooking me during my 19th birthday! ( sorry if I missed out names but you are still being love by ME!)

I almost died from typing all these...

I want to say...
that I enjoyed my birthday.
6th March 2009 is a good day
Agree with me Suyin, Krystal and Charlene?
hahaha. you know what I mean.

Anyway..
My internship is starting in 1 day.
Omg.
Here I come.

2009-03-04T18:39:00.002+08:00

I am relatively bored.
Practically I have nothing to do and lazy to do anything anyway.
Holiday is ending in less than 5 days which I am starting to sigh over it.
Sighs.
Starting my internship next Tue.
Which means I have to wake up at 5 plus every morning for 5 months?
Killer Killer.
Not to mention the bus ride would be more than an hour?
KILLER KILLER.

Gosh.. A levels result is coming out during my birthday?
wth.
* Thumbs up for MOE! *
Good job. Well done.

Apple is really WOLS in responding.
Not only that, they are dumb. TOTALLY.

I have been typing this on and on because I am afraid that I have to go through the phase of " what am I going to do next" when I stop writing this.

Watched Slumdog with sister early this afternoon.
I have to mention that this is one of the worst experience I encountered.
Not about the movie but the THEATRE.
It stinks. Like EWWW..
I covered my nose with my scarf throughout the show like some Indians.
GV should really install some auto air refreshner man.
FEEDBACK.

There is something wrong with PS Pizza Hut.
I had to ask more than 8 times for my Pepsi refill.
I don't see the reason why their service is so slow when they have more than 5 staffs in such a small restaurant.
FEEDBACK.

IG chalet was a blast. Never did I dare to wore pyjamas to town.
What's more wearing it to a luxury hotel like Fullerton hotel.
Credits to Jamie for planning it well!
Credits to Sharmaine, Terrence, Brandon and all for being a good chefs for the night!

NYK must be enjoying or suffering in China now.
Ohh., I miss him..
Hope he is doing well of course.
And DAMN him.
This is don't know the how many years he didn;t celebrate my birthday.
Since sec 2?

2009-02-19T02:02:00.002+08:00

The slowness and laggy of this stupid DELL INSPIRON is getting on my nerves.
Apple is getting no where better.
They are irritating the hell out of me.
Why Do I Buy A Macbook in the First Place?
Nono. Should be why would that stupid fat woman knock onto my cubicle and causes my lapyy to become like this?
Wth.
Feel like skinning her alive.
TP should just build their toilet cubicle bigger!
ASSHOLE.

And I just accidentally drop a pad into the toilet bowl.
Oh well. I can feel my Mum's scream coming.

Driving is getting up up up to the top nerves of mine.
ASS.

Singtel should just eat shit.

Okay.
I can see that my mood isn't very pretty at all. oh wells.

ARGH!

2009-02-19T01:28:00.002+08:00

My mind is in a whirl right now.
I hope it is all because of my cramps.
Everything is in such a mess.
I feel so insecure in everything.
The feeling is like shit.
They call this "mood swing" right?
Damn you. Go away.

BLasting music into the ears sounds like a good idea.
If there's a place for me to scream that would be even better.
This is fucking irritating.
I don't know what's got into me.
there's seems to be blank.
Oh gosh.
Die please.
DIE.

2009-02-16T12:23:00.002+08:00

WATER

I just need you to stay in my mind for that 1 hour later.

Less than that actually.

45minutes will be good.

Everyone says that

It is a matter of time that broken things will be healed.

I'm waiting.

2009-02-13T11:20:00.002+08:00

It's the FRIDAY the 13th!
Woots. anybody excited over it?
I hope it's not as bad as it is.

Last day of school, last day of class and last day of classmates.
That would mean internship is starting soon.
Gosh.
And it would means 20 weeks without seeeing my coursemates.

Valentine Day tomorrow!
gosh gosh.,

I need a money pot to drop right in fornt of me.
So many things to settle. neh neh..

Okay i'm having class right now and yet I borrowed lappy from Kua to kill time.
APPLE SUCKS.
Oh gosh.
Why do I keep saying oh GOSH ?
Sounds so bimbo

2009-02-11T23:51:00.001+08:00

The sight of SINGTEL makes me pissed off.
What's wrong with the line and system.
I feel like just throwing them the $200 and quit from their line!
ARGH!

okay im feeling very hungry now..

2009-02-10T20:21:00.001+08:00

IT'S OVER.

I'll miss you SSM & CULINARY.

2009-02-09T23:19:00.002+08:00

When I got home. I saw 5 RED packets on my bed.
What a nice way to end my 15 days of New Year right?

SSM last day.
What a nice and bad one.
I will miss the fun I had over there but not the waking up part and gel-ing part.
OH! MEANS I CAN OFFICIALLY HAVE MY NAILS BACK AND PAINT IT!
PLUS MY HAIR.
OH GOSH.
actually not much about my hair because it's not that I will be cutting or colouring it.

I think my energy is running out.

Why is the whole world buying E71?
that's crazy. and yes. SUYIN I'm refering to you.

oh ya..
Bye.

2009-02-06T23:52:00.003+08:00

I have got lots of steps to take.

I need much more strength then I have thought.

I think I have a set of Ten Years Series answers in me

which I wonder why others do not have it.

She is me.

I am her.

IT'S A SIGN

" Go home bathe and bring my books down to void deck and study!"

That was my initial thought when I bought the lift.

However, while taking a lift up, I was accompanied by a stranger who lives the same block as me.

Anyhow, I never see her before ( I should stop swearing. okay random)

When the door open for her, she start talking to me.

She: You seldom comes home so late uh?

ME: Erm... not really. ( smile)

She: Oh.. Then you better be careful. I remember two days or what ago, there's two banglah
going around trying to open up people's house at this block.

Me: Oh...

Door closed and she left.

Tell me it's a signal right! I just decided to study at void deck in my mind then she told me that. And as anyone of my friends who knows me well. The word 'banglah' really turn me off. I have tons of fates to be with them. THUS! I decided I should just stay home and study.

THEN THEN THEN.

I went home and bathe. Thinking of putting a mask.

So I need a hairband to sweep all my hair to the back.

I was finding up and down at home for it but it can't be found.

Then I found it at an unsual place of my house.

It was hidden up!

Then I thought to myself: " My mummy really tries very hard to hide it away from me so that I won't use hers. But sometimes I guess I am just more clever. =p"

My day has been an eventful one ever since the moment I opened my eyes.
Sounds drama uh?

But trust me. It is really.

anyway I guess alot of you will not think that I'm lying.

Because most of my friends thinks my life is like a drama.

Oh wells.

The end.

I need to study.

2009-02-05T14:37:00.002+08:00

I have been disappearing from my blog for quite some time eh.

Not blogging as often as I used to. Sorry.

Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SILAS!

You're officially 19!

Secondly,

Good luck for my presentation later on.

Thirdly,

Time is still passing at a very fast speed.

If ever I can do without my sleeping and keep going out, I will be happy.

and I am feeling bad for making Jacq to come to tamp from woodlands!

I LOVE YOU!

2009-02-01T00:11:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling 128963815381..

Don't know how to describe yea.

But I'm alright.

I love talking to Nyk.

He really tells the truth (unless his acting skills is superb)

He pointed out my flaws.

He see through me and makes me realise things that I didn't even know about myself.

Not that I don't know myself well but I rather not face it.

There will alway be something in a person that he or she does not want to face it.

I saw the immature side of me.

Be it from memories or real life.

Though it sucks but I will work hard on it.

I'm just staring into the space thinking about my life.

What a joke.

I'm really loss of words.

To be happy, sad or neutral about myself.

Till now, I could only see blank.

**Thanks for the concern in advance if anyone of you read about this and wanna show concern/listen/ask me about this entry. But I would prefer if none of you will do so. **

2009-01-28T17:19:00.001+08:00

Come back one week later.

2009-01-18T19:28:00.001+08:00

I am puzzled.

Searching in process.

2009-01-18T18:41:00.001+08:00

Cleaning the room is such a torture.
The more I clean it, the more messy it gets.
Have to decide what to throw and what not to.
To add on to the frustration, I realise that my upcoming week will be packed.
Birthday starts to pile up which I have yet to plan.
Tests are on its way coming which I have yet to start.
What the hell.
What a new year.
No time no time

2009-01-18T00:13:00.001+08:00

DOO DOO.

2009-01-17T17:59:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA =)

STILL, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

SATURDAY.=)

People who are very concern about me.

I am fine. =)

Sorry that I did not have the time to meet up with you.

But fret not, meeting session is commencing in 3 seconds?

Okay now you can start telling me when you free and I will be meeting you.

Sounds like some agency uh.

Some of you are so sweet.

Your actually READ my blog and sms/tag me after reading my post that dedicate messages to people whom I love.

I am.. touched.

Oh well. This sem I have a rather .. nono.. superb irritating group mates.

haha

Wiliam, Silas, Marcus, Yinghui and Terence.

Trust me they are irritating but NICE.

Lol.. Love them too..

I have been mentioning love to alot of people in my post.

Don't get bored by it can?

Okay I'm still undecided about my internship.

I'm happy now because I am really taking my studies more serious.

2009-01-15T14:55:00.002+08:00

I have one more hour to kill before going to the lesson that I detest.
Yes. Leadership.
BUT water tech still sucks big time.

Okay. I miss camera.
Taking photos and such.

Have been busy picking up pieces of shit in life. But I guess, it's going to be over.
I THINK.

2009-01-13T17:24:00.003+08:00

I can still smell chocolate.

Culinary was hell and fun today.

Under Chef Farm ( don't know what farm his spelling from) was.....

you can't expect peaceful because he will nag and scold.

Yea, and being his assistant for the day, that's what I got. haha.

Time is ticking like thrice the normal speed it is usually going.
I just wanna stop right at this spot to think.
Think of what?
I don't know. Perhaps just anything?

I love blasting music in the empty house of mine. =)
RED

2009-01-12T19:43:00.001+08:00

Stoning.

No time.

Stone stone stone stone stone.

Chocolate waffles was dope. It reminds me of gelare's ice cream waffles. waaa...

doo doo doo doo doo doo doo.

2009-01-11T22:09:00.002+08:00

My mummy was super happy for one reason: Her daughter finally willing to pick up a rag and start cleaning up the messy room of her. Yes. That is me. There's just so many things needed to be tidy up and chuck it away. Cleaning my room is a torture. I would rather crack the brain of mine on project.

To throw or not to throw?
That's the question I have to trouble about when comes to cleaning.
It's sucks.

It's a good time to think about the past though.
Surprisingly, I still kept all my diaries and photos and such.
I was reading and looking at it.
Days were so much easier, simpler and happy.
The love letters, letters, presents and photos all look as if it was just recently matters.
But, come to think of it, it was at least 2 years ago.
I'm feeling happy and sad at the same time.
Happy that I am still able to keep in contact with these people who love me.
Sad that I am not able to keep in contact with people that I wished to.
Can't have the best of both world right? ( someone told me this)

There is one significant person that I think of.
If not for you, my life would not have change at all.
If not for you, the word " independent" will never appears in my dictionary.
If not for you, I wouldn't know the meaning of family love.
If not for you, I would not get to know the importance of friends.
The past is what I used to detest.
However, I realize it was not the detest part that I was running away from.
I learnt it by the hard way.
Let the past be gone and embrace the present and future.
Here I am wishing you that your life will be good, for I will pray for you.
=)

2009-01-10T20:29:00.004+08:00

I decided to use 30 minutes to blog.

I'm gonna say out all the things that I wanna tell my friends because I have no time to send a sms or meet up with them:

B8:
Nicholas: Surprise? You are the first one on my list and first one that came to my mind too. OMG, I seriously miss HongKong uh! Even miss the moment where you woke me up every single morning but I still refused to wake up. hahaha. Miss the time I stick close to you like a superglue because I don't know a single Cantonese word. Bimbo I know. See you on thurs aight? =) and do you want to re-new your contract with me?

Benn: You are next! My room mate! OH MY MOTHER. These words really got stuck in me for some time. Miss you like crazy can? I don't understand why can't we have the time to meet when we are in the same school? That is seriously weird. Miss the time we cam-whored in your condo toilet and me hiding in a guy cubicle while waiting for that stupid stranger to pee finish. Oh well. Thurs!

Jeremy: Since when you in B8? Lol joking. Anyway you and your karma uh! Anyway Im just joking. rmb, our 6% of love. That's pathetic! I miss DIM SUM BIG TIME! Stop looking at girls! haha but go after them uh! Forget about the FION or FIONA! Whatever it is yea. THURS!

Amanda: How's the air in sentosa? I hope you see loads of hunks. And must rmb to come back to us! If not one day we will declare war with your poly friends. Nahh.. I'm just joking. We are all GENTLE people. haha. Love you my dear.! Miss teasing you or being tease by you lah.

Suzanne: Ahh you must be busy doing assignments again or looking after those little monsters. Oh poor thing. But fret not.. I'm here to love you! And not forgetting to miss you. The sessions we had at your house swimming pool was AWESOME! I remember running around that jaccuzi pool of yours when the guy I like messaged me. That was so so long time ago. Let's have more!

Samantha: You You You. Busy with dance and boyfriend and church and dunno what else. Just remember to take care of yourself and come to us more often!

Charlene: This curly hair lady. You sucks! haha Welcome back to singapore! Sorry didn't have the chance to meet you up after your return but you are still missed by me! Sweet of me right? Don't worry lets meet up with that CHUA WEISIONG to drink. ( we still owe him right).

Lydia: Take care of yourself and join us more often. Seriously one year I only see you less than 5 times. What's more not as if we live countries apart. =)

Weisiong: ASSHOLE! My partner for quarreling, supper and everything. Sorry that I didn;t meet up or answer your calls recently. busy with projects. But BUT! soon soon okay.. Please take that BTT of yours. I wanna sit in your car! And stop cursing me to fail my TP! and I miss you! Clark quay!

Premm: Dear or dear! you are superly loved and missed by HONG ZHENHUI. You sucks but you rocks too.. STOP HURTING YOURSELF!! and kill that lecturer who gave you 50 pages. It's damn darn alot lah. Starbucks is waiting for us. Thanks for being there for me. =)

SUYIN: This GIRL! you are the love of my life. And I swear it upon my life. No one can replace you. You are the top top top of my LIFE LIST. Lol. Since the day people thought that we are lesbian, we are fated to be tgt. Oh so sweet of me right? I have to consume more packs of sugar just for you. Thanks for caring and concerning about me. No one can beat you for that. You have seend me through different stages of my life even the darkest one. Fret not. you wil continue to be MINE!

Eeyin: Girl. We meet like twice or thrice in a year. Busy girl ah! I miss you! Can we meet up soon?

Rachel: Ass... Cute girl lah. hahaha oh miss drinking with you. And dun get drunk.

Krys: Hey Bitch! The bitch and the slut. Within a year, we really had qte a few obstacles ah? But I'm glad that we pulled it through. Let's try to maintain it shall we? It's a good thing that we can get to know each other. LET"S THANKS SUYIN TGT! haha.. and I do know that we are suppose to meet up soon. Oh let's go back CC and study again. Though I dunno what's there for you to study. Maybe you bring your tuition kid go there? Lol and and and FISH & CO. It seems that we said it a year ago but still not done yet. hmmmm...

Kush: All the best in CD aight! take good care of yoursel! =). Miss your driving skills ah. and the prata house.

Clement: All the best in your sailing!

Joel: You must be enjoying your last phase of army! University is on its way haunting you! =) take care! Drinking and supper session with the rest will be coming soon! How about LK?

Yammy: Hey yo! Lunch Lunch Lunch! Soon okay!

Kua: My love oh my love. You took so good care of me in poly. Fret not I love you. Don't be overly too sad. Screw all those. and you can do it! For there are alot of people that hope you stay actually! So that I can always cycle to your house and cry in your house carpark with your shoulders lending to me. =) or even cycling to your house in the middle of the nights, pleading you to help me.

Zhilin: WIFEY! our marriage is such a funny one? ANgie the choice cake rocks! ahah and you rocks! Its been long we sit down and talk or go out. let's do it can? and i miss the period we cycle around my house area or staying at each other house. ALl those memories are so significant. And the ordering of 20 pieces of pizza drumlets is CRAZY. but only we will do it uh. Sad... So let's do it again.

Jamie: Don't think I forget about you.. I didn't. And I miss you .. Even though we are in the same school same course but the chance of seeing you is like 40%? and spending time with you is like totally impossible. I miss the malaysia trip we had and the staying over!

Brandon: You are the only asshole that i will call and will always be hahaha! ANyway thanks for asking me to die whenever you got the chance to but too bad I am still living in this cartoon life of me. Let's just hope it gets less drama lah! All the best in squash and please start saving your liver. I think I need to start a campaign for you that is called " Save the liver".

Keiths: Just dance. Is the only motto in your life right now I guess. haha do take care aight!

Eng Kee: Disturb and disturb only! haha but still your keyboard is fortunate to let me pour water on! hahaThanks for doting on me! and you sucks! hahaha let's meet upi often for supper! and im not a clubber!

Stanley: Happy being an army boy uh. You won't have the chance to read this. but love you!

Glady: uh uh uh! always say wanna meet but end up tsk tsk.. is either you or me will have things. Not fated uh!! But I still love you.. Love your fierceness! hahaha. My birthday coming, you should know what to do uh! haha and STOP clubbing so much la clubber.

Saihah: Our THURS date. hahaha. although got one extra guy tag along but oh well we need some bodyguard eh.. hahaha You are so so so so irritating to the max but you are pretty. No link right? NVM. =) ang mohs ah! or herold.

Samuel: I don't like your name! haha anyway, being the bodyguard for thurs not bad uh! Take care!

Adam & Joanne: Ah Ah Ah.. Stay as a sweet couple always okay! haha Adam stop your JIN LONG GE!

Hasri: stupid! Stop pinching me ah.. I know i too cute already.. but control! hahaha

Jacq: You are not being missed out. Instead you are being missed by me.. Oh damn why do we have to be so far apart. I miss all those concern that you give us and those little little things you do for me. Though the past contains some unhappiness but it strengthen our friendship. let's really meet up and my birthday is coming!

Shawnee: I think out of all the LRM seniors. I know you only lah! haha my french partner who suffer being the same team as me. LRM's projects are getting too much right?

Muthur/ Adrian: Hey Sorry that I have no chance to meet up with you. Working with you in Genki sushi last time was superb. The fun and all. How I wish it was still open.

CH: Thanks for helping me to do the logo. Let the past go and embrace the future! Nice knowing you!

Doo: Thanks for loving me so much! And doing all those little things for me. And being stupid is the most sweet sweet thing. haha. I miss you! Do take good care of yourself. =). You rock but you sucks too. haha. Sometiems I really wonder if your family run sugar production. because you never run out of it. Love you!

2009-01-10T04:39:00.003+08:00

~~~Poohooo~~~
Anyway, this blog is pathetic.
For one reason: I HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING.
Okay..
So Life sucks.
From last week FRI till this week WED.
Trust me. It's hell. I have days of continuous sleepless nights.
Nothing but just purely Festival & Event Mgt project.
You could literally see me being voiceless, coughing like mad and sneezing like nobody business.
AND. worse of all. I have to attend interview.
Yea. I screwed up STB's interview
BUT BUT BUT I did well for another one. Ohwell..
The bank officially suck up all my money.
Now I'm back to square one.
I'm really afraid of school.
It is really a torture.
Okay time for bed! Ciao.
Tomorrow shall be another post!

2009-01-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

LUCK

in need for it.

2009-01-02T18:07:00.002+08:00

It took five minutes to load one website.

Tell me there's nothing wrong with my laptop.

Well there is.

I have to give the answer on Monday.

The sentence " I'm very upset with you." stuck in my head.

It just kept repeating and repeating itself.

wth.

The endless conversation we had.

There's no way that we can break the barrier i guess.

Projects are piling up as if it is as easy as ABC.

Oh well. It is not at all.

The word "Orlando" & "Singapore" keep flashing in my mind like some stupid spoiled traffic light. I seriously hate it.

And I just spent a $30 on a earpiece for nothing.

My earpiece was actually with my friend.

Seriously, OH MY MOTHER.

WHY IS IT EVERYTHING CRASHING DOWN ON ME NOW.

p.s Jeremy, i hope that your 'karma' was not meant for it. because everything is seriously damn fuck to the max.

2009-01-01T17:39:00.000+08:00

A news to start with on the first day of 2009:

Not going to Orlando.

bye.

2008-12-29T18:22:00.003+08:00

I thought that I would die in SSM today.
But it turn out to be rather okay! =)

I feel so sleepy!

Come back later.

Okay I can't forget the part where the stupid girl made my laptop drop on the floor.
Seriously it sucks because now my Macbook lag like shit.

2008-12-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

It's a wonder of how one day can squeeze in so much drama.

I really think it's tiring.

Waste my efforts.

Maybe I shouldn't care about it anymore.

Yea I should.

2008-12-26T16:46:00.003+08:00

I NEED AN ESCAPE.

PROJECTS ARE HELL

ESPECIALLY M.I.C.E

Please do not let me see any mice or mouse right now.

headache headache headache.

if MICE were as easy as blogging everyone will be so happy man.

DAMN DAMN DAMN..

I got a feeling that menses is on its way.

DAMN DAMN DAMN..

I hate the feeling of losing something.

DAMN DAMN DAMN..

I hate long noises going into my ear when I'm not awake yet.

DAMN DAMN DAMN..

The constant nagging sucks.

DAMN DAMN DAMN..

I conclusion:

I think I'm having PMS.

Oh no.

Stay far away from me.

BEWARE

Just kidding.

2008-12-26T03:43:00.006+08:00

I received a box of Christmas present that is filled with RED.

The Box = RED.

The Socks= RED.

The Ribbon = RED.

The Car = RED.

The T-shirt= RED.

Tell me how am I going to stop myself from loving it?

VERY HARD.

I think I should stop saying RED for some time before everyone got sick of it.

Let's see how long I can resist from saying RED eh.

Watched IP man today. It's nice?

haha. We totally didn't expect IP man to be a Chinese show.

AND we were damn shocked.

But oh well, like what I said it's not bad.

Watched Bedtime story too.

It was good. With the company I have with me, it's good.

And And AND

Finally ate Hokkien mee after I came back from Hongkong so long.

Totally love man..

Thanks baby! =)

Time to open my two hands and welcome :

PROJECTS.

Damn

2008-12-25T14:20:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS.

For two years, I spent my christmas eve at St Andrew Cathedral.

It wasn't in my Christmas celebration plan at all but I'm happy to receive Christmas in a church.

Oh. Jamie is so right. I think I can't stop saying about RED.

What's more with Christmas around, RED colour is inevitable!

hahaha..

After Christmas tomorrow will be slogging for projects time.

sighs. Can't run away from it.

nevermind.

HOHOHO Merry X'mas dears!

2008-12-24T14:01:00.002+08:00

I'm happy.

Reason being for the few days I have been meeting up with all my close friends.

I really feel good when I'm with them and how I wish that they could stay together with me 24hours

( okay, not that they want to stay with me in the first place. oh well)

I got to admit that after 4 days of bunking with BENN, he pass the " oh my mother" virus to me.

BENN, YOU SUCK.

Just finish reading NYK "report" in his blog about our HongKong trip.

One word to describe him: WOW

( I wouldn't have the patience and energy to type out what we did during the trip because it was too much. Or maybe I should try sometime?)

Another word to describe after reading his post:

I MISS HONGKONG. TOTALLY.

Christmas came in too early this year.

I have got so much things that I need to complete.

Sighs..

Okay should be happy.

Loves..

dooooodoooooooo..

2008-12-23T12:13:00.001+08:00

I finally finally finish my report.

Anyway

.................

There's no perfect plan in this world.

2008-12-22T13:31:00.006+08:00

Trust me.

It's Guy's heaven.

I never took any cab at all over there.

So unlike of me right?

haha I think so too!

Till now, I can't remember the station names.

I miss everybody!

Just one of our lame action.

So please forgive us.

My bfffffffffff x millions

Our "stirrer"

Woah! RED

Ocean park!

Come to mama!

My "contract" boyfriend that expire long ago

Victoria peak

I'm loving it!

Dim Sum!

The busy street

Hola!

Christmas is coming! Oh well.

I miss HongKong food! especially all the dim sums and all...

My laptop is running low, my handphone is running low, my house phone is running low.

Oh well, practically everything that need battery in my house are running low.

Lazy to charge.

Just wanna lie on my big comfy sofa and glue myself to the HongKong drama that mum bought recently.

I can feel the project's craze.

That is really crazy..

My lazy hormones, it's time to shoo you know?

2008-12-21T17:58:00.001+08:00

Christmas Season.

I love Red.

Feel the love.

2008-12-19T11:56:00.001+08:00

I have exactly 6 hours to finish my report.

One word: Shit.

Good news or you may consider bad news too :

I'M BACK IN SINGAPORE

2008-12-13T11:39:00.002+08:00

flying off soon to Hong Kong!

BUT I wake up today to find out that I have yet to complete super a lot of things:

1. Pack my luggage

2. Type my CV & Resume

3 Do my individual leadership project ( due during my trip)

4. Do group leadership

5. Change hongkong Money.

6. Apply auto Roam for my phone

7. Install Microsoft office into my Mac so that I can bring it over to HK

8. Check if the hotel has wireless internet

Okay that's enough and all I can think off for now.

good luck to me.

2008-12-08T14:59:00.002+08:00

FORGIVE AND FORGET.

Yes that's the term I need to learn.

So before I start learning it, I'm still allow to say:

Fuck you Bitch.

you changes my entire whole life story.

I will never forget you.

No matter what you turn into,

I will remember you still.

though I never confront you before

it doesn't mean that I forget about it.

Lucky you were never my friend before.

Okay. Time to start learning the term.

2008-12-08T11:15:00.003+08:00

I survived through Standard Chartered Marathon!

Woos..

Don't be mistaken.

I'm a route marshal leader not runner.

BUT the feeling is just like being a runner.

Oh.. The only consolation I had was my group marshal (D6) being a super dope one!

Really love them! woots!

I slept for 18 hours. Feeling super refresh right now..

One thing that I dread to do now is to study for my accounting test which is tomorrow?

Damn..

2008-12-06T19:24:00.004+08:00

It's been months since I decided to throw all those thoughts that had been tying me down.

Feel so relax and peaceful.

All those memories seems to have faded away somehow.

I tried recalling them but what's left is just bits and pieces.

Though it's tough, but I'm glad that I learn something out of it.

Most people who don't know me well, presume me as a bimbo, immature, small kid.

Oh well, not that I care. I don't have to show it on the face or prove it to people right?

I miss everything in past. Yet at the same time, I want it all to be erase.

I got used to hearing all those 'small world' happenings.

It doesn't excite me anymore, neither does it makes me sad.

I look forward into leading my life to the fullest.

What's the use of holding back?

Is not whether one can do it but more of whether one wants to do it.

(I'm referring to r/s, friendship, studies and whatever that had happened.)

Zhen.

At the end of the day,

I still love RED and eggs.

Okay that's random.

2008-12-04T23:54:00.004+08:00

What if I say I feel touched right now?

What if I say I feel excited right now?

What if I say I feel nervous right now?

What if I say I feel happy right now?

What if I say I feel troubled right now?

What if I say I feel stress right now?

Thanks Daddy&Mummy. I love your more than anything else in the world.

And I'm serious about it.

Screw the reality.

Screw it.

I have a slogan that I love it the most and I need it the most.

GO GO FIGHTING!

I seriously love RED.

2008-12-04T15:29:00.000+08:00

Smooth.

2008-12-03T19:13:00.003+08:00

Let me introduce to you:

Tay Suyin & Zhen.

Oh na na na na.

My mood finally got better by that little bit after days.

I got to thank girl for being such a thick skin woman.

No matter how much nonsense I blabber she will still take it in..

Nonsense man!

ehhh... it's been too long ever since I blog again.

So I'm a lost sheep over here..

Ta-Ta..

I need more sleep.

AND MORE TIME!

I pray for better days to come.

2008-12-01T23:18:00.002+08:00

Okay. I'm in such a foul mood that I don't even know what I am typing in Msn.

My replies in Msn = Nonsense.

Oh well..

Sucker.

---------

2008-11-30T20:37:00.002+08:00

WELCOME BACK!

Just to let you know that I love you my girl.

I'm so glad that A's are finally over for you.

Finally, we can talk and talk and talk non-stop, updating each other.

But one thing I'm worrying about is the phone bill. oh well.

Lastly, I want to comment on something.

We really look like lesbian uh.

Oh nono.. People, I'M STRAIGHT. Get it right.

Thanks.

Back to my SSM's menu.

Torture.

2008-10-09T21:14:00.002+08:00

I need lots of colourful candies in my life.

Does this looks like condom?

Because I wanted to put it as background for SM.

They all said NO!

Clap Clap Cutie! Come to Mommy.

Okay I just needed a place to vent on.

Thanks.

Come again tomorrow.

2008-10-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

I feel like a Rubbish bin.

This is because I drank a lot of herbal tea at one go.

Thanks to Kangwei, I really felt better.

I almost wanna go crazy during tuition.

Patience. Patience. Patience.

Tell myself that.

Okay I will, since it is the last month.

Anyway, my handphone is cracking real soon.

Dang.

I don't wannt spent money on phone again.

Moreover I do not have any phone that I want now.

Not that I want N81 in the first place.

Whatever.

Currently I'm into driving.

It's fun but tedious.

Damn the clutch.

My test date is coming which I am praying damn damn hard for it.

Damn is the word.

2008-10-08T14:04:00.001+08:00

I think the day is trying to twist itself.

Nevermind about that.

Please do not remind me that school is starting in two weeks time.

Did I just remind myself?

Oh damn!

2008-10-07T23:00:00.004+08:00

First, my door turn it's back on me.

I got stuck inside my room because the door spoilt.

So my dad have to kick open the door.

Let me tell you.

It's 7.20am.

Second, a normal duration takes to eat a

anana is approximately 2minutes or so.

Because of the "painful throat", eating a banana to me is like a torture.

Let me tell you.

It took me 10 minutes.

Third, I ended up in police station.

Not because of anything big.

It's because I lost my staff ca

rd while wor

king so I need the report.

Let me tell you.

With report, pay 10bucks. W/o report pay 50bucks.

Fourth, toilet is like my best friend.

I down myself with lots of water and lozeng

es that makes me keep going to toilet.

Let me tell you

My throat does not improve at all.

2008-10-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

I feel like gorging out my throat.

It's killing me.

Honey water is my best friend now.

and

DAMN IT!

2008-09-30T01:15:00.002+08:00

I'm lazy to post up any photos.

3 days of F1 race seems like 3 years of F1 race.

The routine got stuck in me that I'm used to it.

So tonight here I am sitting in front of my lappy, I feel weird.

Something is missing, but I couldn't find out what it is.

Well, for the F1 race, I'm actually under Raffles Hotel doing F&B.

I learnt alot and suffer quite abit.

Suffering part would be the sore foot that I have got.

Seriously standing there none stop for hour after hour is a torture.

By the end of the day, I think I can become a PRO-Stander.

One word to describe Raffles.

They earn tons of money.

One bottle of drink cost 8 bucks while beer is at 10 bucks.

The people who buy it still thinks it rather okay.

wth...

donate some to me then.

Last day of F1, everyone typically got crazy.

My colleagues opened champagne and alcohol like nobody business.

you can't imagine how hiong they are man.

It's totally like free.

Fun working with them. =)

I feel like a ball now.

Probably because I just at a bowl of maggie mee at wee hours like 1am?

Fat Pig.

All my friends seem so distant away from me.

Except for Nyk.

He have got a busy schedule like me.

But both of us seem so able to meet.

To think of it, my whole holiday, I think I only meet up with him.

Is it true?

2008-09-28T02:31:00.003+08:00

I am super duper tired.

Imagine yourself standing there for more than 13 hours.

having less than 6 hours sleep.

oh well. I bet you will feel like shit.

That's what I'm feeling about it right now.

One more day to go.

Omg.

But the people were kinda fun.

By the way, I'm referring to the F1.

Omg. the sound of the car "zoom zoom" is crazy man!

Damn loud.

And how I wish I'm one of the VIP.

woah.

Can't imagine.

I should start taking out a paper to pen down all those people that I'm eyeing for!

Then my dreams will come true.

CRapp.

Must be the brain wires not connecting properly already.

Damn.

So. Nights.

2008-09-26T00:53:00.001+08:00

Let the past go.

And it shall.

I've decided.

What's the point of hanging it there?

what's the point if I ever scold him?

Will it be beneficial to me?

Nope. =)

Thanks.

Woots.. I need a better pull now.

Go babe!

2008-09-25T11:15:00.003+08:00

This is going to be a long entry.

I'm a happy girl yesterday. =)

Now, let me recall back alright?

because after a sleep, I might have forgotten about what I did yesterday.

HmmmmmHmmmmm..

Okay.

I decided to forgo my swimming date to meet NYK.

Reason being.... I AM GOING TO TOWN.

woah.. exciting uh!

We ate our lunch at the newly open LJS in compass.

AND there's this old uncle keep looking at our table.

Even when I stare hard at him, he still doing it.

irritating.

so we made our way down to Town.

Went to Cathay to see Nyk's Fred Perry.

NUM to see havaianas.

Takashimaya for coach and toys.

Paragon for Metro, GUESS, Coffee Bean, Toysauras, Banana Republic.

Okay..

So mostly went to toys shop to buy children Day present for my two kids.

But end up with nothing.

However.

I bought a Havaianas and GUESS wallet.

It's my first time buying a wallet and Havaianas.

Hear it. First time.

Went coffee bean during tea time. Because we wanna try having high tea. LOL.

After that, I went to give tuition.

Tuition is the same.

Around 8ish went to find Nyk &co. to play Basketball.

Hear it? Basketball...

Wahahahaha..

It's like a damn long thing!

It was fun fun fun!

as usual Suz got injury. lol. lousy.oops.

And when I got home.

MY GOD.

My Citi Clear Card arrived!

I lost a shades recently.

And guess what?

I found it back.

See how happy I was Yesterday?

However.....

at the same time.

My phone bills came.

Never mind.

I'm still a lucky and happy girl for yesterday. =)

2008-09-24T11:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday

Anyway, my mood was not good at all.

I think it's because of the frustrations in work.

Oh well.

It's okay, I'm not working for at least one week.

What a relief!

and to one of my friend,

if you ever chance upon here.

Please do know that I really treat you like a friend.

Not more. Not less.

Let the past stays behind.

Though I admit that I am overboard at that time.

but people do make mistakes just like you too.

I am no longer who I used to be.

I'm not as stupid as the past.

Not as blunt as I used to.

Not as dependent as I was.

Thus, don't let the past haunt you.

From the past we kept saying whether to believe or trust is up to me or you.

But no worries.

As a friend, I will stand by you.

Guess what people? I'm going to TOWN TODAY!!

2008-09-23T00:09:00.004+08:00

My entry is getting more and more boring.

Because I am writing things that people won't get to understand due to the questions not answered: who, What , when, why. oh wow.

Anyway, I slept for full 12 hours today.

shiok shiok.

Then went to Raffles hotel follow by tuition.

Boring life right?

YES, I AGREE!

<-- sounds like I agree to some marriage proposals.

Okay I do wish for it.

hahaha..

Recently I have like 2 random people who anyOhow messaged me asking me to be friends with them.

Not funny and not fun at all.

I don't know who's friends are that and which friend of mine gave my number away.

BUT NO FUN, serious.

Did I mention before that my tuition kid are called, Aaron Tay Junhao

The names they got is so so..... I don't know how to say man.

Junhao- is the name of my crush during primary school.

Aaron- is the name that I used to decide to name my future son.

Now... In 6 hours plus time I will be having my driving 4th driving lesson.

and I'm certain that I will need to drive to Ubi again.

Oh man. which means.

JAM!.

Now I hope that in my dreams tonight, I will be dreaming of clutch, accelerator, brakes, gear, mirrors and slope.

NOW MY BLOG GOT VIDEO. cool...

anyway nice song. Credit goes to clement.

I shall not be lazy and upload photos of Engkee FLY OFF.

2008-09-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday.

2008-09-21T01:09:00.002+08:00

It was sweet of Nyk and Benn to "fetch" me just now at Sentosa.

We walked from VivoCity to Chinatown.

I swear that the road was rather scary.

The whole journey I was clinging on to either Benn or Nyk.

We really love walking.

and I should stop swearing uh!

if not I would die sooner or later

Okay people. TO YOUR INFO.

I have not been drinking or clubbing okay.

So don't stereotype!

But I still like drinking.

Pictures tomorrow. Au voir!

2008-09-19T15:02:00.003+08:00

I feel the fake-ness in it.

No matter how hard I tried to convince myself that it is not,

it is.

Was it really that hard to achieve what I seek for?

because it seems so.

What's the worse.

They do not know about it.

Or was I being too paranoid?

But it doesn't seems so too.

If only everything just stays at Day 1.

If only there are no complications.

If only I control myself even better.

If only I never opened that door of hers.

If only I never sit down.

If only I never asked them out.

If only.

Everything would just be different then.

2008-09-19T00:00:00.002+08:00

Oh wow wow.

Thanks to EngKee's fly off, I received 407 pictures.

Gosh, the people we have is so cam- whorers.

Wanted to upload over here, but choosing pictures and waiting for it to load takes quite some time.

Moreover, I'm having my Driving Lesson tomorrow at 7 am.

Thanks to my bet with my coach that I could wake up. Damn.

I hope that I could wake up and keep my senses awake for that 2 hours.

Service host was easy today, except that I fail my quiz.

Eh, I don't know Sentosa well. ahha

And it's like a thanksgiving day for me.

Oh well..

Shall upload tomorrow.

2008-09-18T00:00:00.005+08:00

Smallest man meets woman with longest legs.

My god. the guy is real human alright!

So I'm not short after all.

He Pingping from Inner Mongolia, China's autonomous region, the world's smallest man sits underneath Svetlana Pankratova from Russia, the Queen of Longest Legs, as they pose at Trafalgar Square in London, Tuesday, Sept. 16, 2008. Pingping, born with primordial dwarfism, holds the Guiness World Record for the smallest man at 74.61 cms (2 feet and 5.37 inches) and Pankratova holds the Guiness World Record for the longest leg of any woman at 132 cms (4 feet 4 inches) in length.

From:

http://news.yahoo.com/nphotos/Guinness-World-Records-Trafalgar-Square-primordial-dwarfism-Guinness-World-Record-Inner-Mongolia/ss/events/lf/042005guinnessrecord/s:/ap/20080916/ap_on_fe_st/eu_britain_world_records/im:/080916/481/5deb9c471deb4ecda03a53851cb8db25/